October 27th, 2009
What do I want?
What do I really want?
A few clients- coaching and healing, people I can help to shift their life into what truly supports
Regular income I can rely on
Money is no longer an issue, it flows
Some sort of passive income source that aligns with the truth of who I am
Time to be
Time for the garden
Kaylee one day a week – Grandma time
Working with others to create something
Intellectual/spiritual stimulation
Juices flowing
I’m lit up
I’m juicing life!
I really believe in myself
I experience my ability to manifest
Whatever I dream flows to me effortlessly
My life is inspired and inspires others
Healing bed and breakfast retreat center
I feel good in my body- I am fit, strong and I feel supported
I feel blessed to be me
I am living as my gift to the world
I unfold my life with grace and ease
I am in love with life
So what’s right for me now? Right now? In this moment?
Writing this, getting clear, being inspired, allowing the knowing to come forth
I am living my life from the inside out. I listen to and follow my inner knowing. I guide myself and my life from my deepest clarity, from the place that lights me up, from the inner source of joy and illumination. I live my life from my place of, from my energy of, from my inspiration.
My inspiration. I’ve been holding an outbreath. I’ve been waiting to inhale. I’ve been waiting to inspire, waiting for inspiration. Inspiration is my guide, but not some external force, my own inspiration. My in breath. MY inbreath. Breathing myself into myself. Being full of myself. Taking myself in. Inspiring myself. I have been waiting to inspire myself. To be inspired by myself. To breath myself into myself.
Inspiration. Inspiration is the place that lights me up, the inner source, my inner connection to my source, to my deepest self, to my spirit, to my breath, to my life force. Inspiration.
I take a deep breath and allow myself to be filled with my knowing, with my truth, with my light, with my clarity, with my essence. I allow myself to be fulfilled. I allow myself to be fulfilled. I am full of my self, as Abraham puts it. Filled, full, full of my spirit, my source, my breath, my life, my knowing, my light. I am full-filled with the truth of who I am, filled with the possibilities that I dream. I am filled with my ability to create whatever I dream.
I’ve been holding an outbreath, stuck on empty, having given out, given out, exhaled, expressed, waiting to inhale, waiting to receive, waiting to take in again, but not willing to take in the same old stale air, the same old patterns, the same breath that not longer fulfills me, not willing to live the same breath that gets me no farther than I’ve gotten thus far. I’ve been waiting to be inspired, but not willing to take responsibility for inspiring myself. Not willing to take responsibility for my inspiration. Not willing to live the inspiration that has already come.
What is it to be responsible for one’s inspiration? To fully take in the truth that one is, has, knows… to be full of one’s truth, to be full of one’s knowing, to be full of one’s Self. That’s a lot to take in.
And then what? We can’t stop there. An inhalation is always followed by an exhalation. What does that mean? How? What? How shall I express the fullness of my being? How shall I be this Spirit Self, this Divine Breath, this inspiration in the world? What do I create with my exhalation? How do I be this inspiration in the world? Bring this inspiration into it’s fullness in the world?
How do I take it in to the point where I can exhale and it is still the inspiration I breathed in? But it’s not the same, it’s never the same, it changes constantly. With each breath I add light to my being.
I am a writer. I’ve know that and I’ve resisted that knowing. I’ve struggled with it for years.
Now, today, in this now, I choose to inhale the truth that I am a writer. This is a part of my identity I choose to stop resisting and denying, stop struggling with, stop holding in. I inhale, I inspire this identity – I am a writer—so that I may now exhale, express, live out that identity, expressing my Self in this way that inspires me and others. I inspire myself, I breath myself in more fully each time I exhale such a full and rich expression of my truth, of my being. I choose to deprive myself no longer of this rich cycle of breath. I choose to breath now, to breath fully, inhaling and exhaling, as the poet and the writer I AM. My breath is complete.
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